Ev's Collective Thoughts Vol. 4

That's right..I'm back...and I have blogged!

I know I haven't posted in forever...but that's because I've been posting elsewhere hehehehe. http://www.myspace.com/evman666 Check me out yo. Nice to see..someone out there still comes here...

WOW! I have a friggin blog! OMG I forgot about this place...um...I guess...I uh...should update...aye?

Well...nothing much to report...life is great...work isn't bad...and love is in the air...mmmm...sweet sweet lovin...I mean love...love...right...

I'm not making sense and can't really think of anything to to say...so TOODLES!

she got grounded from me...lol.

Ok well that is a really stupid groundation...hahaha.

Ok well atleast I know she is alive.

I'm such a wimp. Its been 2 days since Amber has called me without any word from her and I'm freaking out...like some sort of little puppy waiting for the master to come home...I just sit around by the door and perk my ears everytime I hear a car go by...except its not cars I get excited about...its emails...Nothing to report though. I know you must be thinking...chillax bud its only been a few days...well...you have to remember...we haven't gone weeks without calling each other...at least once per day. Even if its just a little, "Hey hun can't talk long but I just wanted to say hi." kinda things. Atleast that something. Its a reminder they are still alive out there. I'm getting worried and I know there is probably a perfectly reasonable reason I haven't gotten word...and when she does call I'll be like a giddy little girl about it...but for now...I'm worried...I miss her....*sniff sniff*...

I've had incredible days in a row this week. Saturday I drove up at the ass crack of dawn to see my beautiful Amber. We had the bestest of times. It was cold as hell...which is ironic...because I thought hell was hot...but anyhoo it was cold and she was wearing a dress and a shirt that was torn up on the back. Super sexy...but not very warm.

2 hours later.

I forgot I was writting this...

Ok so anyways we had a beautiful time.

The church was cool. I had alot of fun. I know almost everyone there...its scary..and cool...

ok I gotta go toodles.

Ok I don't remember the last time I posted here. Its been a while. I can't really talk right now...well ok I can..but I really don't feel like it so there. But anyways things are going well. I went the beauty pagent at the church last Sunday and I made it to the final 4 out of like...20 something guys. I was happy I just got up there. Anyways...I'll be back some other time.

evman

What low life peice of shit pussy ass mother of a whore deletes your files from 4 different computers? What kind of low life...goes through and makes sure that your quarter has been a complete and udder waste of time? I mean to say what peice of shit would try to just screw you over that bad...what did I do? WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? I obviously got more enemies than I thought...because they have really fucked me over now...and it might just turn out that I won't be passing some of my classes now...and for what? I'm the fuck head here for not backing up my files on CD I guess I just figured copying my shit on FOUR FUCKING COMPUTERS Would be ok...no way in hell would ALL of them be deleted in one fine swoop...is anyone else's shit deleted? Hell no nothing is deleted anywhere else...JUST FUCKING ME! Things were going my way this time too...in fact I was feeling up beat...but now some fuck face peice of shit no fucking conscious little twat of a whore has to go and fuck me over and I don't even no why or when or how. What kind of lesson could I of gotten out of this? Other than to distrust every single peice of shit that works on the same computers as me...should I be paranoid of every person I speak to thinking maybe one of the low lifes was the peice of shit that deleted my 10 weeks of work? Should I just go into a fanatical rage and find this peice of shit and make him pay...pay in blood...pay in skin...Right now I could kill this person...right now I could really fuck the crap out of them. Oh...I hope I find out...I hope I do...I want to see the fear in their beedy little friggin eyes as I rip their tongue out. I want them crying for mercy. This is going to cost me a friggin fortune if I fail. On top of my FRIGGIN GPA which I've been keeping up. They've fucked over everything....I almost want things to go bad just to give me an excuse to hunt the little basterd down...I want to fail just so I have that excuse. ARGH!!!

Smashing puppies with baseball bats....

Hitting squirrels with semi trucks...

Nailing bunnies to the wall with a high pressure nail gun...







*sigh*...ok...I just had to get that out...I just needed to yell and curse and piss on something so that I don't do it for real...

ugh I'm full of so many mixed emotions...

I'm sad and angry as friggin hell and mad at myself and vengeful and happy.

I'm happy because I got a mom and dad that love me beyond beleif and we'll do anything for me...I'm happy because I can draw...and I can draw well...I CAN MODEL! Hell yes I can model..I just got to put my mind to it...I got connections...I'm going to CA right out of here and I'm going to help my cousin out and get some friggin work done. I'm making money at work, and I'm learning alot too...I got good friends here at the school and I got great friends back at home. I got a friggin awesome computer hell I even got two! I'm a good looking guy, I got badass hair, my life could be a hell of alot worse.

Not to mention the farking beautiful being that I'm dateing right now...She's friggin amazeing...everytime I talk to her I find I love her that much more. So what the hell do I have to be angry about.

FARK THIS SCHOOL! What happens happens...I'll pull through...I always have. If I fail well then I farking fail shit happens. I know now not to trust the computers with more half a penny worth of work. I know how to make websites and hell I could make one way better than I had it. It wasn't all that great anyways. Sure I lost some models and some animations...but they were shitty anyways...this is my way to make it new...clean...good..


so yeah...I'm alright...I got a beautiful girlfriend that'll make me feel better...I'm going to go see her in a week, and I going to dye my hair black and white...and I want to get my lip peirced...but I can't do that yet but I WILL WHEN I CAN...and you know what I'll be in that fucking Beauty Pagent and I don't even care if I win because I tried...and I know I'll get at least one cheer from the group...I'm going to goth out and look beautiful...because I can...

AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA....


Damn...I feel good now...

What possible good would there be if there wasn't evil to appose it?! Hello everyone. Feeling pretty good today, just got a whole lot of work done AND on top of it...its more work than my fellow friends here...so I am proud that I am a less underachiever than them...Weird...Ok so I think I'll be going to the Church tonight. It'll be my first try at the clubs on a thursday. Seemed like a fun idea and I haven't been there on a thursday and I've been telling these guys that its fun and they want to go so yay. I hope things go as well as they did last time...except minus the parking ticket...speaking of which I need to pay that...

ON TO OTHER NEWS!

This just in...mommies that kill their babies are not evil...they simply are going through a more serious version of the baby blues...So if you see a mother throwing her children down the river, or sawing off their legs, or boiling them in steaming hot water...even if she is sticking them in the microwave...don't get angry...pat them on the back and say...GET OVER IT!

And if your Right eye doth make you sin...then you should pluck that eye out...so...in other words...PULL OUT YOUR EYEBALLS CHILDREN THEY ARE EEEEEEVIL! SO SAYETH THE BIBLE!....amen....


I stapled my finger yesterday...it bleed like a stuffed pig...which appearently bleed alot...because I've never witnessed a stuffed pig bleed personally...

sorta like the saying, "Straight from the horses mouth" Personally I wouldn't know anything about the age of a horse by the length of his teeth...but appearently...you can...

Me and Amber are doing well. Things getting spicy...which is a hard word to say backwords...She is soooooo cute...UGH! I miss her...can't wait to go see her again...which I'm pushing for the 17th but I dunno if it'll really happen. I haven't really been able to talk to her in the past few days just because buisy schedules..

SPEAKING OF WHICH I need to get my schedule for next quarter..I'm a little late and yeah...its going to cose me money..which sucks...because everything is costing me money lately...

THE CHURCH...ah the temple of sin...the terpsichore-Tavernatorium-illuminorama-assembladome!

BUT I'm tired of being here...I'm tired of typeing...I'm tired of you doing that lip reading under your breath thing as you read this...that's really annoying....you know that?

Evman