Ev's Collective Thoughts Vol. 4

What low life peice of shit pussy ass mother of a whore deletes your files from 4 different computers? What kind of low life...goes through and makes sure that your quarter has been a complete and udder waste of time? I mean to say what peice of shit would try to just screw you over that bad...what did I do? WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? I obviously got more enemies than I thought...because they have really fucked me over now...and it might just turn out that I won't be passing some of my classes now...and for what? I'm the fuck head here for not backing up my files on CD I guess I just figured copying my shit on FOUR FUCKING COMPUTERS Would be ok...no way in hell would ALL of them be deleted in one fine swoop...is anyone else's shit deleted? Hell no nothing is deleted anywhere else...JUST FUCKING ME! Things were going my way this time too...in fact I was feeling up beat...but now some fuck face peice of shit no fucking conscious little twat of a whore has to go and fuck me over and I don't even no why or when or how. What kind of lesson could I of gotten out of this? Other than to distrust every single peice of shit that works on the same computers as me...should I be paranoid of every person I speak to thinking maybe one of the low lifes was the peice of shit that deleted my 10 weeks of work? Should I just go into a fanatical rage and find this peice of shit and make him pay...pay in blood...pay in skin...Right now I could kill this person...right now I could really fuck the crap out of them. Oh...I hope I find out...I hope I do...I want to see the fear in their beedy little friggin eyes as I rip their tongue out. I want them crying for mercy. This is going to cost me a friggin fortune if I fail. On top of my FRIGGIN GPA which I've been keeping up. They've fucked over everything....I almost want things to go bad just to give me an excuse to hunt the little basterd down...I want to fail just so I have that excuse. ARGH!!!

Smashing puppies with baseball bats....

Hitting squirrels with semi trucks...

Nailing bunnies to the wall with a high pressure nail gun...







*sigh*...ok...I just had to get that out...I just needed to yell and curse and piss on something so that I don't do it for real...

ugh I'm full of so many mixed emotions...

I'm sad and angry as friggin hell and mad at myself and vengeful and happy.

I'm happy because I got a mom and dad that love me beyond beleif and we'll do anything for me...I'm happy because I can draw...and I can draw well...I CAN MODEL! Hell yes I can model..I just got to put my mind to it...I got connections...I'm going to CA right out of here and I'm going to help my cousin out and get some friggin work done. I'm making money at work, and I'm learning alot too...I got good friends here at the school and I got great friends back at home. I got a friggin awesome computer hell I even got two! I'm a good looking guy, I got badass hair, my life could be a hell of alot worse.

Not to mention the farking beautiful being that I'm dateing right now...She's friggin amazeing...everytime I talk to her I find I love her that much more. So what the hell do I have to be angry about.

FARK THIS SCHOOL! What happens happens...I'll pull through...I always have. If I fail well then I farking fail shit happens. I know now not to trust the computers with more half a penny worth of work. I know how to make websites and hell I could make one way better than I had it. It wasn't all that great anyways. Sure I lost some models and some animations...but they were shitty anyways...this is my way to make it new...clean...good..


so yeah...I'm alright...I got a beautiful girlfriend that'll make me feel better...I'm going to go see her in a week, and I going to dye my hair black and white...and I want to get my lip peirced...but I can't do that yet but I WILL WHEN I CAN...and you know what I'll be in that fucking Beauty Pagent and I don't even care if I win because I tried...and I know I'll get at least one cheer from the group...I'm going to goth out and look beautiful...because I can...

AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA....


Damn...I feel good now...